Proof

I shove my tears farther back

Until they're falling down my throat

Gripping my heart

I'm being stabbed in the chest

In one breath

I'm a train wreck

I try to pull them back again

But my tears keep coming

They're proof that I'm hurting

My tears are bullets

Acid on my cheeks

The way they fall

Proves to me I'm weak

There comes a time

When I stop smiling

The weight of the universe

Finally breaks me

My world is spinning

Faster than I can comprehend

I have no one to lean on

No real friends.

That's when the tears come

Proof that I'm not strong

The strain on my heart

That's been building up for too long

I'm a hurricane

My chest stings

I hate it when my eyes rain

It's written in mascara smudges

Clouding my eyes

Proof in the stinging sensation

Pulsing through my heart

Every second I cry

The secrets I've tried to hard to hold inside

Are no longer mine when I cry

My tears are proof

That even I cry

Proof

That I'm alive

and sometimes

I can't hide.