I think back to the end of June 
when baby, it was us
not me and you. 
close my eyes for a minute
flash forward to July
when you kept pretending  
but I knew it was a lie
you go back to her
and the rest is a blur
now it's August third
fourth 
or fifth 
damn, I'm so depressed
I don't know what day it is. 
Sitting in the back of the 128 
I don't know the time, so I can't be that late. 
I keep hoping you wont forget me
you'll regret you left me 
or maybe, 
that's just me.
my friends finding flaws in you I couldn't see
now I'm wondering was it you or was it me?


I know I'm not supposed to turn around 
but I keep looking back 
and I find it kind of funny 
that I can't forget what never had 
let me tell you the worst part of moving on 
is turning around and they're already gone. 

I'll make it look easy
but believe me, it's not.
You make it look easy
you leave me, you're gone.
I'll make it look easy
like you weren't even here
but why do I keep finding you
in this
that
there?
I close my eyes,
flashback to lie number one
mistake number two
strike three, you're done.
I'll open 'em like it's easy
crack jokes
but laughing wont please me
or ease the pain running through
half of my veins are bleeding you.
I'll make it look easy
but damnit, it's hard.
you're sorry you played me?
Baby, I'm no card.

So here's the thing.

Everyone looks at me like I'm a magician, I moved on so fast.

I make it look easy
look at all the people who actually want me.
I don't need you,
if you don't need me.
I'm already gone
when you decide to leave me.
And now you've got candy eyes
feeding me lies
like "baby, I'm sorry."
"Jessie, don't you want me?"
but I'm so sorry
I'm not drowning anymore
now you're on your knees
do you even know what you're sorry for?

meet life,
it's moving on.
I flashback to that night
and just like that, I'm gone
you lied
about what is and isn't
what you did or didn't
what is and what was
but I don't blame you
that's what a liar does.
I'm leaving you
You lost me
like liars do.


I'll just keep going
though I'm out of rhymes
maybe I can write my mind
into the right this time

Hey, Mr. Ego
Mr. Hearts For Dinner
Mr. Fuck her and leaver
Hey Mr. Nice guy
ha, that's a nice lie
Hey, how was forever?
yeah you're smart
but baby, I'm clever.

We fell into each other like summer rain 

with air still warm enough to taste 

we changed like seasons do 

you lied like liars do 

whatever the motivation 

or lack thereof 

whatever the situation 

or one made up 

you can’t change the things you rearranged

or grasp what almost was

you left the scars a liar does 

You weren’t even human 

when you washed me away

we fell apart like summer rain. 

and now you’re sorry 

but I’m so sorry 

I’m not drowning anymore

and now you’re sorry

but darling

what are you sorry for?

And now you’re sorry 

I’m leaving 

now you loved me 

like liars do. 

It's been a while.

I miss my old hair. ):